I've got to be honest. For the past few days, I was so close to giving up. Stress and all those frustrations almost got to me. I never felt so week and vulnerable. :(

--One Sweet Day

This is one day I will never forget.:)

Last night, Tristan told me that I shouldn't be late because the early bird catches the early worm. By then, I already have the intuition that he will do something the next day.

I woke up earlier feeling a little bit excited. LOL. Anyway, let's just fast forward the events.:)

He got there by 7:15, so I had to excuse myself from the class. I asked him why he was there, he merely shrugged and said "wala lang. :)" I know it was nonsense but I was touched because he woke up so early in the morning just to see me.

The original plan was that he was going to stay there for only 15 mins. Then 15 mins. turned to half-day. Haha. Just to cut the long story short, he felt how sad I was when he was about to leave and I also asked him if it wasn't so much if he would stay that's why he decided to just give this wonderful day to me.:)

It's just feels so great to see how things have turned from a childish relationship to a more mature one. It feels good to know that we don't have to see each every single day just to feel secured that time and space won't keep us apart. Because, no matter how long we spend our time apart, the way we feel for each other will never change.

As they say, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." I remember laughing at how absurd this statement sounded to me. But suddenly, it all made sense. As soon as I got home, I talked to 'bro', thanking him for this very wonderful day and also praying that nothing would happen to take this day's magic away from us. Also, I asked Him to just let me spend the rest of my life with me. I know we're young, that's why I wanted us to just enjoy our lives first. But then, after the many boys/men I've seen and met, no one else comes close to him.

He's the only one who has not only touched my heart but the one who held it safe in his hands, trying his best not to scratch it, even just a little bit.:)

Thanks, Tristan. For making my life more meaningful.:)

--Cheesiness.:)

Early this morning, I sent Jann a text message and this is how our tiny conversation went from nothing to cute (for me).

mabi: alam mo, parang ayoko na bumili ng phone.
janjan: bkt?
mabi: eh kc naman, ang dami na nating memories kasama ng phone na 'to.
janjan: Oo nga eh. madami na talaga.
mabi: ayun, kaya nagdadalwang isip pa ako. :(
janjan: eh di lagyan natin ng bagong memories yung magiging phone mo.:)

Haha. I know. I'm cheesy.:)

--Mabi @ 19. June 30, 2009

What made this day a very special one is the fact the I did not expect anything. But then, God has blessed me with a birthday full of love and concern from my family, lover and friends. Seriously, I was overwhelmed that I received so many greeting from my friends through SMS's, e-mails and so on and so forth.

I am too overwhelmed to put my feeling into words right now. Haha.:) Maybe, some other time. See you soon!

--Truth Hurts?

After my 9-10 a.m. class, I had to look for someone I could spend an hour with. That's when I saw Jof. So, we went downstairs to Reyes' Barbecue to have our lunch. A few moments later, Thom, much to my surprise, showed up. And this is where this went from okay to bad.

He started nagging me so much he sounded literally like my mom. It took me by surprise that I was at loss for words. He started blaming my relationship with Tristan for what has happened to me. He kept on telling me things I ought to do. I was so pissed I was so close to tears.

But after taking some time to reflect, I felt that he has a point. Maybe I lost my focus (but that's not because of Tristan, that, I am so sure of) and I just have to focus more on my studies. I have a lot of options to choose from after I graduate from BSMA. Maybe, I just have to weigh them carefully.

Still, I cannot believe he just scolded me as if I was his daughter. We weren't even close. I don't even like him. I don't care what his intention was but he has no right to talk to me the way he did. Even Jof felt that Thom has gone way too far with this that he even apologized to me on Thom's behalf. Now, I'm starting to wonder how they became friends. They're at the extreme opposites of the spectrum.

Anyway, I don't want to further ruin my day . So, since I have already put this in words, I can now forget what happen earlier today and start working on my studies so that I can prove them, especially Thom, wrong!

--First Day Funk.

I woke up this morning not knowing what to expect. I wasn't really as excited as I used to be, but I guess it was fine.

I was a little bit more shy than my usual self but I think I pulled it off. I have Mr. Guimary as my Accounting professor and Mr. Petalver as my Math professor. Tomorrow, we are to meet our Law, English, BA and Finance professors. I just hope that this semester will end in a much better way than the previous semester. As much as possible, I want to make up for the lost time. I want to be able to rise up again and just bring my old self back. I know it's not going to be hard because I have my friends and Tristan with me.

Speaking of him, he picked my up at school this noon. We ate lunch and then went back to AMV to talk to Mr. German. After that, we sat down for a while and then, we went home shortly after that. It's so funny that after being together for almost 17 months, time has not yet taken away the "kilig-factor" that I feel every time I'm about to see him. While listening to my math professor, my mind kept on drifting from math to him. I felt giddy and I suddenly felt restless. Suddenly, I felt like an highschool girl all over again. (LOL)

I'm going to end this blog before it gets any more senseless. But, please pray for me guys.:) Thanks.

--Why girls should refrain from indulging themselves in chic flicks or romantic books?

After reading so many love stories this summer, I realized it's making me too romantic it feels like I'm poisoned. . It feels like it's affecting me in a ridiculous way. Tristan would remind me that I live in a REAL world, not in some fairy tale land. It's pathetic, I know. I am happy with Tristan and all but sometimes, I wonder what would having someone fight against the world for me feels like. Especially someone who used to have a stone-hard heart but will eventually change due to his undying love for a plain, simple girl. Tristan's too tough to show his weakness, and sometimes I envy those girls in the stories that I've read. I mean, a guy she dreams of is now doing crazy stuff just to catch her attention and would be jealous of stuff he shouldn't be jealous of.

I know this blog's gibberish and a garbage but, hey, this is all I've got. Deal with it.:D

Girls, if you love your guy so much, refrain from indulging yourselves in romantic stuffs. HAHA. It will make you yearn for something that isn't real. You'll start expecting your guy to do things that he doesn't do-things that doesn't show the real him.

:D